Let the silence settle in our bones

2011-11-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

I was getting too friendly with the demons in my head when I should have chased them away. Nonetheless, the past few days have been crazy. My body has been shedding too much skin I've yet to accustom myself to this new found feeling. History wraps around my heart slowly integrating itself being one with it. This acceptance of life has wrecked the equilibrium that once held its place against the strongest of waves. A redemption with every waking moment. Insanity at its best.

I miss the night without it screaming at me.

raison d'être

2011-08-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

I exist and that is my problem.

2011-08-02T23:02:00.005+08:00

social anxieties.

Priscilla Ahn,

Garden State.

It's good.

All's good,

At least for a little while.

Is this it?

2011-07-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

This is it,

2011-07-26T22:30:00.005+08:00

It is only the intangible things that I'd steal from you. What good will the tangible do when you're no longer around but remind me of the remnants of what never happened. I can only have you for such a brief moment. Thoughts and soul we'd trade. You'd ask then about my heart but my heart is of no use when it's cold and bitter. What I want is for you to be stripped and vulnerable but who would be brave enough.

2011-07-04T23:26:00.003+08:00

A product of society,
I have long passed my expiry date.

2011-06-30T22:35:00.003+08:00

Wake up realizing you have another 16 hours to conclude you are an acosmist. The denial of the universe and reality brings your existence closer to a void. Given the time and solitude, death itself will be sure to follow you alongside. You are nothing but an abyss of nothingness.

Cat's Cradle

2011-06-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

All these years. Floating in mid. Malaise growing in the cracks of my bones. The very moment I found out the inner workings of society. Not a pleasant sight. A pack of foma! It's impossibly impossible to live without speaking of the untruths. A play of words, irony slips in between every sentence you articulate. It is no wonder you never understand anything.

2011-06-23T06:17:00.000+08:00

Solitude rain tunes. The breaking of dawn.
All geared up for another dimension.
Take me with you.

2011-06-14T00:50:00.001+08:00

Who's creeping this space?

Gather your sinister tools
We're in for a treat,
for a kingdom we build only to watch it fall.
Designed to function accordingly.
Be sure to make a spectacle of your inventions!
They are only wired specially for this brief time on earth.
~

2011-06-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

An unstoppable force is pushing me to the edge and I am unable to pause for a moment as much as I need it. Doldrums and silence would appease my soul but oh what little time I have left in this world~

Once again, the living has restrain my ability (or lack thereof) to comprehend the universe.

2011-06-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

My mind,
My heart,
heavy as it is.

Friday

2011-06-06T23:28:00.001+08:00

A different scene, it's been awhile.

'You seems happier', chuckles.

I am content?

Happiness, what is that?

2011-06-01T20:46:00.000+08:00

Nauseated in a second.
A plague unknown lures you in without notice.
Torn between the truths and untruths.
The only options left leads to despair.

Silhouettes

2011-05-28T21:53:00.003+08:00

Places with events overlapping one another ceases to bring joy but a longing pain for those gone for ever.

2011-05-22T21:34:00.002+08:00

This sharp pain distorts my reality hoping to never return to the state of lucidity. Take me away from here. My existence reeks. It is time to cut the chord.

2011-05-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

I am stuck between both worlds. One of which is solitude and isolation from the world and the other offers uneasiness and anxieties for the price of being. Which do i choose to live in?

Tipping the scales II

2011-05-14T01:37:00.001+08:00

What is a little pain compared to what is after death. What are you waiting for then? Take your pick!

Tipping the scales I

2011-05-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

Soon I will be lured by death itself,
taking me far away from here.
Till then what lies within me will not rest.

2011-05-10T22:49:00.004+08:00

Restoration at best when isolated
Pleasant tunes are advisable,
The louder the better.

It will be over before you know it.
Chaos will soon overtake tranquility.

Invisible

2011-05-09T21:53:00.002+08:00

The rarest days where I feel like living,
I am missing out on everything.
Not even a fraction of life I would live.

2011-05-08T00:21:00.003+08:00

Clarity
This is what is absurd
Living, life, events, people, breathing.

2011-04-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

I haven't forgotten about you.

2011-04-11T19:42:00.003+08:00

My head is too far in the future to be concerned with the now. I am never where I am unless You're here, there, wherever I am. Where are you?

2011-04-05T05:21:00.003+08:00

Sanctuary after sanctuary i will build
till i find chaos
I will take the last breath
my last breath.

Reality

2011-03-30T23:10:00.001+08:00

is this what you're like?

If so, it would be nice if I could be excused forever.

There are no natural catastrophes

2011-03-29T09:31:00.001+08:00

We are our own enemy.
We are the war.
Humanity is the war.
Nature is only its main battlefield.

2011-03-26T20:24:00.001+08:00

But everyone disappears, no matter who loves them.

2011-03-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

The awakening of one's senses to another world. Discovering the darkness and the emptiness of one's mind. How one claims to have nothing on their mind but it is chaos that wrecks the syncing of one's thoughts and speech.

Weaklings

2011-03-18T01:58:00.001+08:00

The untruths will keep you from what's apparent. Why not deal with the absurd and live at the same time?

You wouldn't last a second.

2011-03-09T04:35:00.000+08:00

Remember kids,
down the street and not across.

2011-03-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

I have thought about it a little too often that I find myself lost in time. Did it just happened yesterday? Or has it already been a year. Turns out time is nothing more than a mere time line we abide by to get us through our whole existence here.

2011-03-06T08:09:00.001+08:00

Redemption